Your name always brings a smile to my face
and knots to my heart
Somehow you became my ace
from the very start.
The wheels of loneliness spin in your vision
a blue grin cast downward, eyelashes beat against pale hollow cheeks
Three years I’ve invested in this mission
of saving you from your weak weeks.
Of dull silence and sharp tongues; terror by day and false peace by night
They all claimed they knew you, understood you but when you put that gun to your head
you gave them a terrible fright
Thinking you’d wind up dead.
They had no earthly idea of the pain you carried, how you felt day in and day out
How much it took to suppress the demons inside
When all your soul pressed you to shout
but all they gave you were cold callous snide.
Remarks of get over it, just be happy, it’s not that hard, life can’t be that bad!
Fear mutes heightened resentment, bitterness, strife and anger
And reduced you to a never ending tide of madness, egad!
Remembering all those long hot nights of languor.
Drags you to me, a place where you can lay your head and rest your mind
the haunting ghosts in your eyes ebb back into its resting place
as I pay you back in kind
for all those times you unknowingly made my heart race.